I spent 3 nights and 3 days with him. We were so happy like we didn't hurt. I had the best smile as we went along and had the best time ever. I never thought that it would still hurt to hear him bid goodbye. I don't know if he's coming back again. We made love like we never broken each others hearts.will I ever see him again???and will he even see me too?
i know that it takes awhile before a heart could move on..but the pain is just killing me and im still affected of whatever he does . He underestimates the wound he caused me that's why it's just so easy for him to laugh at what I do.Im just so tired feeling this way..
i still have so many questions and I could hardly find answers. Though I already have a lot of generalizations, I find myself so clueless. He doesn't want me anymore and even if I want him to want me again, he's not giving me the chance to do so. I don't know why im still crying, I dont know why I let my self struggling in pain when I can even choose to be happy. How can I be happy anyway?How?..They say it takes time to overcome this, but how can I make it faster?
I wish to move on but I coudn't find a way. There's a way but it's so weak that it still leads me to cry and whince. What did I do to myself that I'm letting myself so down?
i thot we will last forever
i thot that by giving him everything..he would learn to love me..
now i end up alone..because he thinks he cant move on with me..
i love him so I would let him go..
but letting him go hurts me so bad that I hope to die just to run from that feeling,,
how can I move on???
when can you ever understand how it hurts to be with you
when I stand like a slave doing everything to see you smile
how can you stand seeing me with the pain you cause?
can't you just listen to the mourning beat for a while?
i'm so tired of the burden...
i want to let go but...
I still love you...
I know that im strong..but im so surprised that i feel so weak now. I have never imagined that it would hurt this way...I have never imagined that this was going to happen..
I thought no one would give up..and if there was someone anticipated..it was me and not HIM..
I thought I'd be happy with the freedom..yet I'm so upset coz it doesnt give me any sense of direction..
I wish to give up my pride..and start to beg..but I know it would give me a "NO"..
Im stopping my tears from falling..telling myself that I'd get over it...pain would just dissolve as tears would stay inside..won't it?
I thought I could bear the pain
of letting you go..
I know I made a mistake of telling that it's fine to lose you
BUt now i see myself crying of praying you'll come back to me..
But now you're gone
How can I say how much I need you now you're gone
How can I say that I am sorry?
..That I regret the times I've hurted, and I dream to live a life with you..
How can I ASK A chance to love you..
Now you're gone..
You said you'll never let me go..
But where are you?..
i'M LEFT with only memories
and I DONT know how to get through
I know that I was wrong
of telling that I dont believe you
this was the reason you were hurt
and so you left with no goodbye..
Will God give me a chance..
to hold you once again
is it wrong to make things right,
and to get your love back.. then..?
i thought I'll never be able to blog anything again..I thot there'll be no more heartaches..but Im so upset that I am writing right now...well, I just wanna express what I feel..
why am i always giving up?..why am I the one who's bridging the gap almost all the time?..why can't he do it for me?...why do I always turn out to be a criminal of his brain and heart..when what I only want is his attention??..his care?..
Why cant I say that I am willing to let go, when in the first place I am suffering?..I am n0t loving the suffering..but why am I staying here?..
he's not who I want..but why am I afraid to lose him?..
he doesn't care the way I care..but I am asking more of him each day..
why does he he deny that I have no worth to him?..when I always feel that he's not interested all the time..
if he loves me..why can't he shout to the world that he does?..
If he loves me..why is he causing pain?
are these questions the outcome of loving somebody too opposite of me?
He tells me he loves but I cant feel it
he tells me he loves me but he could hardly show it
He tells me he loves me but why cant he understand
That he's hurting me everytime he says the words yet doesn't do it?