it's been years yet I couldnt figure out how I fell for you and worse is I could hardly confirm whether I'd like to be with you for the rest of my life. There are so many things I hate about us and things that I know would never change. I always tell you when I am mad but it drives me crazy when you only hear me but never listens. You never make things right when I tell what's wrong. I want to shout at you that you're lazy, selfish, incosiderate and insensitive!

the Longer we live together the more reasons I get to stop myself from being with you. Is this the reason why God gives us both enough chance/ time to be together so I could know you more and convince myself to let go of you?

i have always dreamt that i could be with you everyday, but now that you're with me, I could hardly breathe. It's so weird how time has changed the way I feel. The more I know you the more that I want to let you go. I feel so tired of disappointing myself. I cant say anything to your face because you raise your hand to shut me up. I dont know if this just my drama that pisses you off or are you just so close minded unwilling to listen to what i think or feel. How many times should I remind you that YOU need to be thoughtful??...

here i am again..pls welcome me back ..

I spent 3 nights and 3 days with him. We were so happy like we didn't hurt. I had the best smile as we went along and had the best time ever. I never thought that it would still hurt to hear him bid goodbye. I don't know if he's coming back again. We made love like we never broken each others hearts.will I ever see him again???and will he even see me too?

i know that it takes awhile before a heart could move on..but the pain is just killing me and im still affected of whatever he does . He underestimates the wound he caused me that's why it's just so easy for him to laugh at what I do.Im just so tired feeling this way..

i still have so many questions and I could hardly find answers. Though I already have a lot of generalizations, I find myself so clueless. He doesn't want me anymore and even if I want him to want me again, he's not giving me the chance to do so. I don't know why im still crying, I dont know why I let my self struggling in pain when I can even choose to be happy. How can I be happy anyway?How?..They say it takes time to overcome this, but how can I make it faster?

I wish to move on but I coudn't find a way. There's a way but it's so weak that it still leads me to cry and whince. What did I do to myself that I'm letting myself so down?

 i thot we will last forever

i thot that by giving him everything..he would learn to love me..

now i end up alone..because he thinks he cant move on with me..

i love him so I would let him go..

but letting him go hurts me so bad that I hope to die just to run from that feeling,,

how can I move on???

when can you ever understand how it hurts to be with you

when I stand like a slave doing everything to see you smile

how can you stand seeing me with the pain you cause?

can't you just listen to the mourning beat for a while?

i'm so tired of the burden...

i want to let go but...

I still love you...

I know that im strong..but im so surprised that i feel so weak now. I have never imagined that it would hurt this way...I have never imagined that this was going to happen..

I thought no one would give up..and if there was someone anticipated..it was me and not HIM..

I thought I'd be happy with the freedom..yet I'm so upset coz it doesnt give me any sense of direction..

I wish to give up my pride..and start to beg..but I know it would give me a "NO"..

Im stopping my tears from falling..telling myself that I'd get over it...pain would just dissolve as tears would stay inside..won't it?